Thoughts on my life as I see it

Well now, I believe it's time to catch up. It is now 2011 (that's the first time I have written the new year). This year I will turn 60 years old. I find that an impossible to wrap my brain around. Where have the past 59 years gone? In the Bible, James says that our lives are just a vapor and I am finding that to be so true. I'm not saying that to be melancholy but it's just true! I am reading a book called "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan. What I love about this book is that it is making me realize that the whole "point" of my 59 years should be to point to God. So as I look back, can I honestly say that my life points to God? Mostly, no. There may have been a few instances but otherwise, no. "For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" Romans 3:23. Maybe it's because I am turning 60 and eternity is closer than it was yesterday, but having God be reflected in my life has become suddenly urgent to me. When in fact, it should be a natural part of my everyday life. And though I am not good at resolutions, that is one thing that I pray I can develop in my life....that reflection of God....that empowering of the Holy Spirit.

And in 2010, God did bless me and Mike over and over. The biggest blessing was our "anniversary" trip to Southern France. It is still hard to believe it actually happened (there goes that vapor again) but it did and knowing that my feet walked on the ground of Kings and Popes was pretty awe inspiring. Which causes me to be reminded that we walk on the ground that was created by God. See...I'm really wanting him to be part of every thought! The "Practicing the Presence of God" thing that I'm doing. So this trip was amazing and thankfully we took over 600 pictures to help us remember this experience.

The holidays were very difficult for me and they shouldn't be. Life is what it is and I am thankful for the choices my family have made. Especially my son. I am so proud of him that I almost burst with joy. I could not have been blessed with a better child. So though it is hard for me to have him so far away and our visits so few and far between, I need to be content. But that's where the holidays were made difficult...my "poor me" attitude. I was so selfish for wanting my "family" here that I overlooked the family that God has given me for this part of my life: my wonderful husband, my Aunt and Uncle, my church family and friends!

I think you can see the theme that's going on here. It's not about me, it's about Him.

2011 will hopefully be more about Him.

Praise be to God and Praise Him for my family and friends. Thanks for letting me rant a bit. Maybe I'll blog a little bit more and maybe I won't. It is freeing to be able to put one's thoughts down in print.

Is the point of your life pointing to HIM?